One Fat Chick, Three Kids and Jerry

2005-04-18T08:00:00.000-07:00

It is official! Today we start the Bloggers 30 Day Weight Loss Challenge. The scary part? Well that would be that I am about to post pictures of me that were taken this morning. Never in my life have I take a side view picture. But being the brave soul that I am.....

And the pictures are not all. To make myself publicly accountable I am going to post my weight as of this morning.....Oh I can't believe this.....270

Ok now that I have totally freaked myself out, and realizing that I must get a hair cut this week, I am off to get some more water.

So with all that now behind me I would like to introduce you to my competition (I am so going to win this! I mean that in a very sportmanly way!) Please be sure to visit them and offer some words of encouragement as we all battle it out to see who bloggings biggest loser is!

Brooklynn of Southern Secrets

Bruce of Outhouse Rag

Goldberry of Silver Linings

Jenn of Lady Jade

Jes of Boher time

Laura of Fatty boo

Purpose in Life?

2005-04-16T20:17:00.000-07:00

I know I have missed a couple of nights of posting. I guess that is cause I have been doing some thinking and working on a new venture with a friend of mine. All this has me really thinking about my purpose in life. Do you know what I mean? I am asking myself is this what I am supposed to be doing. I feel that there is more to me then I have been letting out. Now is the time that I have to do it.

What do I want to do?
I want to reach people and be of support and encouragement to them as they tackle the huge task of losing weight. I know that this may not seem like a huge goal or purpose. But in thinking I have realized that it is one thing that I am very passionate about. Getting healthy for me physically and emotionally.

I think there is to much put on the what of eating and not enough put on the why of eating. I am no expert but I know that I have been through many things in my life and they all have led me and taught me that you must get to the bottom of the emotional side of eating if you are going to get the weight off permanently. And that is what we all want to be healthy, able to do the things we have been to embarrassed, ashamed or afraid to do.

It is time that we all learn how to truly love ourselves where we are right now so that when we are thin we will not still have the emotional baggage that led to us being over weight to begin with.

So check back with me, I hope to be rolling out the new website that my great friend Jenn and I are working on.

Until then, do something just for you and leave me a comment about what you did or are going to do.

New Blog Design!

2005-04-14T20:37:00.000-07:00

Well after a bit of searching and tweaking I have found a new design for my blog. I would like to know what you all think about it. Sorry to not post a real message tonight I will get to it first thing in the morning!

Perfectionism

2005-04-13T20:00:00.000-07:00

This might seem like a strange topic. Perhaps it is but I have come to realize that my biggest reason for failing at dieting is my own stubborn perfectionism. For a long time I did not really think that I was one of those people that had to have things perfect.

I mean one look around my house would tell you that. Kids stuff everywhere, something unseen holding up this box I am yacking at and the peak of Mt. Washmore getting ready to go through the roof of the laundry room.

Then one day I realized that the reason that things were this way was because I had adapted an attitude of “if I can’t do it all the way, why do it all”. This is not a good attitude to have. Lots of work and many moons forward I was able to over come the evil monster of perfectionism that was cluttering my house.

Since starting this new journey I have been doing some looking within. I see now that every time I have started a diet or exercise plan I have set myself up to fail. I laid everything out to the extreme and did not allow any room for me to be human. I had to do the plan PERFECTLY or I was a failure.

Eventually this led me to a point in my life that I gave up trying all together. I adapted that same “if I can’t do it all the way, why do it at all” motto. As you can imagine with that motto came pounds, more depression and more isolation from the world. Feeling like if I could not do something as simple as eat what is written down then I am really not capable of anything.

So what is different now you might be asking. Well I can’t totally put my finger on it but I would say that the motto is being deleted from my mind. I have made some rules for myself that are required:

I will focus on the things I achieved not those I haven’t yet achieved
Fail is no longer a word that I use
I will pick up right where I am to move forward not looking back
I choose to be joyful no matter what life throws my way

Is it working? Well I don’t know for sure yet, check back with me often to see. I can tell you that I feel great and I don’t feel discouraged in the least. I have chosen to let go of being perfect and just be happy with being me and doing the best that I can do! The weight of diet perfection has been lifted off of my shoulders, it might not show on the scales yet but it will!

Remember live for each moment and embrace the love of those around you.

Fat Chicks On A Mission

2005-04-12T19:33:00.000-07:00

Recently I have been able to find this fountain of motivation that has me excited to start working harder to get myself healthier. It is a feeling that I cannot explain but I wish I could bottle and give to everyone that has ever struggled with their weight.

What have I done so far?
1. Well I have not had a cigarette since Sunday (4/10/05) and I only had one the entire day. So I now consider myself smoke free! And the best part, no cravings at all to have one.

2. I have stayed on my low carb-eating plan since Friday (4/8/05). I feel great have more energy and am really starting to feel like I have control over my eating. If you don't believe me read here and see for yourself.

3. I have made 2 new friends that I am really thankful for. They make me laugh, listen to my rambling and give me cyber hugs when I need them. And from time to time they slap me around. Kris and Jenn I am really glad that we crossed paths! There is nothing worse then feeling like you do not have one friend on the planet.

4. I went to the doctor and she is helping me with my weight loss and is helping me to manage my depression. I have been so bad about taking meds until I feel better then stopping thinking I don't need them. Fact is I do and probably will the rest of my life. And I am ok with that now.

I have to say looking at it all in writing makes me feel even better.
Finally I feel like I have a purpose and it is getting better all the time. I am on a mission....A Fat Chick On A Mission!

If you would like to be a Fat Chick On a Mission to then I invite you to join Jenn and I at our new YahooGroup. We are small now but will grow and we are looking to move forward and really beat the stinkin thinkin that hold us back and get ourselves healthy. You can visit our site and join at this link:

Live each day to it's fullest and enjoy every passing moment. Life is to precious to miss!

A Fear Gripped Moment

2005-04-11T18:39:00.000-07:00

There was a terrifying event in our home today. It was something that rocked me to the very core of my being. I was standing back seeing the smiling happy faces of my children and I could not enjoy it.

I tried and tried. I paced around the house, I went outside, I hid in the basement. No matter where I went the fear, the anger, the voices in my head, and the thought of knowing I let everyone down were overwhelming me.

Finally I dug deep with in me to a place that I have rarely been brave enough to seek out. And the most incredible thing happened.......

I said NO to the brownie temptation!

That's right! I did it, boy does it feel good. I can still smell them right now but it is ok the urge has come and gone and I am still 100% on plan.

I FEEL SO EMPOWERED

Oh What the Heck

2005-04-11T13:55:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking about this all day and have decided to go ahead. Since I do not have a huge number of people reading my 2 day old blog I figure I will not get to many nasty emails from people that found this totally inappropriate.

This is a website based in the UK. The TV program is a real program that was really shown to children in the late 70's early 80's. It is very funny if you just relax and enjoy all the implied statements. You will not believe the things you will here!

Rainbow TV Clip

I am warning you now that it is humor that adults will get and kids (at least kids back then) would not have gotten. DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU!

Please leave your comments of what you thought, hey I will take the bad ones to, I need to get my first hateful comments as a blogger out of the way anyhow.

Bloggers 30-Day Weight loss Challenge!

2005-04-11T11:09:00.000-07:00

Do you need to lose weight or better yet do you need an incentive to lose weight? How about joining Goldberry of Silver Linings and Bruce of the Outhouse Rag in the challenge. The "Bloggers 30-day Weight loss Challenge" was set up for two reasons; 1) Decrease weight and 2) Increase traffic to your blog. There are no rules to your exercise program or to your diet. But, we do have rules to enter and compete in the Challenge.

Rules:

You must have a blog.
Post these rules ASAP and prior to April 15th with you intentions that you are going to participate in the "Bloggers 30-day Weight loss Challenge" inviting others to participate linking them to this Post.
Email both Bruce and Goldberry that you are participating by noon (Eastern Time) April 15.
On April 18th you must post your current weight and picture of your face.
Post links to all participating bloggers (we will provide you with the list on Sunday, April 17th along with a BWLC post) on Monday April 18th
Post your new weight each Monday (4/25, 5/2, 5/9 and 5/16) morning with links to all participating bloggers (This will allow other bloogers to compare their weight loss success as well as increasing traffic to your blog)
If you drop out, you still MUST post the winners post on Monday, May 23rd.

We will continue until Wednesday, May 18th (30 days) and the person that loses the largest percent of body weight wins ((starting weight - finished weight)/starting weight). Picture will be used as evidence of reported weight loss. The winner will be announced on Friday, May 20th. The winner of the challenge will get to write a post for each of the other participating blogs to be posted on Monday, May 23rd, Think of it as free advertising. Invite as many bloggers to participate as you want, as long as they can hang with the rules. If you lose, You must pay up! Or a wrath of bloggers will make many nasty comments on your blog about what a loser you really are! lol

So please join in the ~~fun~~ "Bloggers 30-Day Weight loss Challenge" – Part 1 and lets see that weight drop and your blog traffic increase.

In the Beginning

2005-04-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

This is the beginning, the beginning of my new life as a blogger. Scary I know, but hey I want my spot on the web to celebrate, vent and cry also. Like it or not I am here.

So just who is One Fat Chick? Well my name is Lee Ann. Here is a picture of me. Notice how it follows the "fat lady photo cut off" rule? I am very good at only allowing pictures that do NOT show below the waist.

I don't look as fat there as I actually am but it is the only picture I have right now (translates to don't want to do my hair and make up to have a new picture taken of me)

I am doing Atkins right now to change myself from a fat chick to a skinny chick. Heck I don't really care about skinny just want to be able to run and jump and play with my kids with out feeling like I am dying! I am also dealing with depression. This has been a part of my entire life it seems and I don't want to be a slave to it anymore. I am on meds now and am really starting to feel better. Here is to feeling normal!

I am divorced and I am sure in time you will all get to know Robert my ex that left me for a friend. They are blissfully miserable and for that I am thankful. Here is to Rob and Tammy getting exactly what you wanted and finding out it SUCKS!

Now that you know about The One Fat Chick I will share with you a bit about the 3 kids they are great and I love them very much but some days I think I should have been fixed!

I have a 13 year old daughter, Noelle, that is everything that a 13 year old is about. Nothing about me is right, I am an evil nasty mother most of the times. On rare occasions she will slip up and allow me one of the last cuddles, hugs or pecks on the cheeks that I will get from her. She is to grown up, to moody and tooooo much like me!

My next in line would be my darling RJ who is going to be 8 this month. He is all excited and he tells me almost everyday how to construct the tweenkie cake that he would like to have on his birthday. Don't email for a recipe it is simple...Stack twinkies like a pyramid and add candles. He is a game freak and if he is not playing online he is playing his game cube. I know we are mean nasty people that have not gotten him such things as an xbox or ps2. How the child survives with out these things is one of the great mystery of the world.

And lastly we have my darling Will. He is a very active 20 month old that is forever making me laugh, smile or run from the house pulling my hair from my head screaming like a mad woman. What else can I say he is ALL boy ALL toddler ALL the time!

Of course this is One Fat Chick, 3 Kids and JERRY! Now we can not forget him and I am sure he will be happy to know he has been included here....Or he would rather shoot me and drag me out back and bury me. Either way he is here like it or not.

What can I say about Jerry? Well I love him dearly with all my heart. He came into my life when I least expected or wanted anyone and now I can barely remember what life was like before him. He is my best friend period. Jerry never ceases to amaze me with the things he says, he often makes me blush and want to hide my face with the sweet things he says. And hey "I like his cute butt! Well I do!" (<---name that movie anyone?)

But I dont want you all to think he is perfect. He talks in his sleep, steals the blankets, gets moody and is a mess until he gets some coffee. He has other faults to like thinking that I am wonderful, for this we are going to have him institutionalized. Just kidding J I love you!

That's it! This is getting long and you are not even reading it anymore so I will go, well until I come back and post again.